Dear old me,

How have you been, now that I'm not like you anymore?

How is life? Do you sleep well at night?

Did you brush your teeth before bed last night?

Do you still eat food from the street rather than cooking your own?

Do you still second guess yourself?

Are you still impatient, or irrational?

Are you still timid, and scared to speak up?

Are you still needy, and emotionally dependent on others?

Do you still look at the flaws on your skin and consider yourself

worthless?

Look at other people and wish you were like them, wish you had their hair, their eyes?

Do you still take life for granted?

Do your thoughts still wear you down?

Do you still self-reject?

Still, listening to people’s opinions of you?

Well, over here.

Things are pretty great.

I am in charge, I am happy, and I am intentional.

Of course with a few rough bumps here and there,

But we finally found a rhythm at it.

I have a clear vision

I wrote it down where I see it every day

I see it every day so that I am reminded of the destination,

and how I badly need to get there,

taking one step at a time, each day.

I am addressing my fears

Confronting my traumas

Breaking stereotypes.

I have mantras I tell myself each time the self-doubt kicks in

“I can't be this brilliant and still have that big bum”

Makes me feel so much better.

I have learned patience and grace

I know what is mine will align with me.

I understand that people’s actions are more about where they are coming from

And less about me

I talk to God, I am aware of myself

practicing mindfulness

Eating more healthy food

And drinking more water.

They say, "change is scary but so is staying the same." I hope you are not the same person you were 12 months ago.